Tuesday, August 23, 2005
THE REAL ME.
Everything is settled now i guess. I made my so-called close friend cry. Chatted with him till roughly 2 30am. Yea, my attitude sucks la. Sometimes my parents can't stand my missy character too. Why? It all starts with my ex. I was complained too guai. And the things he did pissed me off totally during the last month. My temper starts to worsen each day. After we broke, I cried whenever i see the things we once did, when couples laughed happily like there's no tomorrow. I dunoe if that's called depression. But i know he left me living in agony. I didn't want to do anything good.
I allowed myself to be the bad. I slept more in class, played MORE and MORE of basketball, online all the time i'm at home till mid night 2 to 3am, continued wearing ankle socks, played hide and seek with teachers, talked back to the HODs, made people cry.. Haha, i know this dun sound any good. But this was me. I wanted to start anew in this current school. During the holidays i was good, happily with my mum all the time. Be it at work (we worked for the same company) or at home. However, my attitude worsens upon stepping the basketball court. I realised that since last year already, but i didn't want to change. Because you really need those attitude in order to STAY on the court, zhen de. Maybe it's only for my house area, many pro bballers owns that AP :D Weakling loses.
You bet. I played basketball almost everyday (weekdays) in school now. Yup, i let the attitude possess me. I felt really very song when people got pissed off. Yes i dun care about what other people think. I'm self centered. I DO WHAT I LIKE. I DON'T CARE WHAT PEOPLE THINK. Even my parents thought so :X Some of my basketball friends (male) are like that too. My mummy has seen some of them. She thinks basketball made us become like monsters, lol. Basketball attitude do affect some people ba.
And now, i will not trust anybody with stuff. People are fond of backstabbing and blabbering everything about the one who is at wrong. Two faced yeah, you people rock the shit :P
Now, my uncle called. Grandmother is at risk now :'( Will pass away any time.. KAOZ. The doctor said that virus is in her blood, and that the tumor in her intestine is increasing in size. The tumor will burst when it's at the maximum. Later in the evening will see her. Last time she got heart attack, i went hospital see her in that state, i cried. Now, i dunoe what i will do. SIGH. What can i do ..............
People, i was indeed very stressed nowadays. Many things are trumbling down to me. I shall let this attitude stop making people's life miserable ba. Sigh and bye.
I allowed myself to be the bad. I slept more in class, played MORE and MORE of basketball, online all the time i'm at home till mid night 2 to 3am, continued wearing ankle socks, played hide and seek with teachers, talked back to the HODs, made people cry.. Haha, i know this dun sound any good. But this was me. I wanted to start anew in this current school. During the holidays i was good, happily with my mum all the time. Be it at work (we worked for the same company) or at home. However, my attitude worsens upon stepping the basketball court. I realised that since last year already, but i didn't want to change. Because you really need those attitude in order to STAY on the court, zhen de. Maybe it's only for my house area, many pro bballers owns that AP :D Weakling loses.
You bet. I played basketball almost everyday (weekdays) in school now. Yup, i let the attitude possess me. I felt really very song when people got pissed off. Yes i dun care about what other people think. I'm self centered. I DO WHAT I LIKE. I DON'T CARE WHAT PEOPLE THINK. Even my parents thought so :X Some of my basketball friends (male) are like that too. My mummy has seen some of them. She thinks basketball made us become like monsters, lol. Basketball attitude do affect some people ba.
And now, i will not trust anybody with stuff. People are fond of backstabbing and blabbering everything about the one who is at wrong. Two faced yeah, you people rock the shit :P
Now, my uncle called. Grandmother is at risk now :'( Will pass away any time.. KAOZ. The doctor said that virus is in her blood, and that the tumor in her intestine is increasing in size. The tumor will burst when it's at the maximum. Later in the evening will see her. Last time she got heart attack, i went hospital see her in that state, i cried. Now, i dunoe what i will do. SIGH. What can i do ..............
People, i was indeed very stressed nowadays. Many things are trumbling down to me. I shall let this attitude stop making people's life miserable ba. Sigh and bye.