Wednesday, October 27, 2004
If only the tree holds on tightly to the leave, even if there's a drought, the leave is happier than anything else.
Another good friend of mine broke down. I dun understand why relationships are getting more and more tensed. We all stead within a period, then after a few months, everybody start to break and cry. Even those who has been together for very long, ended their romance. Tell me why, why and why. Guys seemed to be very understanding and thoughtful for the FIRST few months. Then after, from a queen, girls dropped their position to being man's slave. Dun you guys know that girls dun have a strong heart? That most girls are loyal and faithful? Yes, there maybe some flirters around. After being hurt by them, you came with words and motive to almost kill me. I suffered a breakdown, almost got depression. All those flaws that I have is mere, compared to letting you wear a green cap at home. You can't expect me to change completely over a new leaf and being what you love overnight. You said that I made you wait too long. But how patient have you been? Was it a year that i remain unchanged? Personaities are hard to change. From not-so-confident, I've to at least absorb motivations and encouragment from you, whatsoever. Nobody is perfect. I accepted the flaws you have. I talked about you more than i could. Everything that has you involved, I speak of it. Sometimes it dulls my friends, but who cares. For you, I cared, perhaps too much. I love, still as much. It's the first cut that is always the deepest. Grass are greener on the other side of the field, but can a grass be compared to a tree? Unless the grass is really very powerful to burn all the sorrows the girl had. Leave belonged to the tree, the wind blow and blow. If only the tree holds on tightly to the leave, even if there's a drought, the leave is happier than anything else. What the hell, I talk and talk, now tears flow down my cheeks. All these while, I've managed to build a hard cover for myself, though as soft inside. I dunoe why am I still caring about you and all. It's stupid and I let myself down. To someone whom treated me like shit, I still care. I wun show it all out that I cared. You might say that I'm the most foolish person on the earth. Your pride and ego stands out the most la, talented GUY. How I really wish and hope that all guys who made their ex or whoever cry that badly, all go and die. Those guys are bull shits, chicken shits, pig shits and cow shits. They are shits, but why do we still love and care for them? Haa.