Sunday, September 05, 2004
You are still the one.. I love the most.
Sorry for being me. I made it rain cuz you gathered the dark clouds. Hatred comes after love, and what comes after? I dunoe. Is there such things as 'happily ever after'? Or is that only a fantasy? Everything sucks to the core. Life sucks, he sucks and I suck. Things were moving on too fast and things ended very fast too. I'm too guai and too caring, he said. So what if my friends care for me? The person whom I cared and love so much doesnt give a damn to me. Thanks for caring but it is not the thing I want. You all cared, but he's the only thing I see. I too guai, too ting hua, too caring. Is that wrong? You dunoe me and yet you claimed that you do. Everything you do is right. Dun hurt me so suggest to go separate ways. Is that so? You think that things will go for the better, but I guess it doesnt, my dear friend. Accept the fact that things are not the same. The world is changing, so do I. Just stop thinking that what you do is right and listen to what I've got to say. It's miserable when I want to cry, but I cant. A true relationship is not all about feelings but with commitments. The course of true love dont run smooth. We are already over. Stop being a din and stop being mad. I was alright until you start to fool around like a mad man. The things that you said really makes me feel like slapping. I din cause the 'Playboy' label on you, dun say I did. Thanks. -12.33am
I thought and I think. I guess you were just not used to people caring for you and everything? I guess so, that's the only reason I can think of. I din do anything much to make you heartbroken or something, didnt I? Maybe I did, I dunoe. Arguing is part of a couple's life, isnt it? I too guai? If you tell my mummy that, she'll laugh her till jaws drop. Is wearing ankle socks and rebelling under the category 'guai'? I wasnt myself in front of your parents. You knew that wasnt me. Moreover it was my first time eating and being together with boyfriend's family. Of cuz I'll go paiseh. Too caring for you eh? Then what for have girlfriend? Girlfriends are for you to love and they ought to care for you also de mah? You Lai You Wang? I also dunoe why I could love you this much. You were the guy who overtook the place of basketball in my heart. You really did. Most people knew how much I love basketball and you could get over it. Yes, your ego is big. But must you also bring out that high ego in front of your girldfriend ALL the time? I dun think there's a need to. Girlfriends maybe the ones you are marrying in future. And must you be always that strong and fit ALL the time? Wun that be tiring? If you duwan me to be caring, I dunoe what to say. Girlfriend not caring, must as well duwan her. I really dunoe what the hell you are thinking. Explaining things to you also irritating de meh! Siao ah. Break so many days le.. I tried to calm myself down and tried my very best to be with my friends and to forget you. You seemed to be moving on easy? I dunoe. Everytime when I could see you, I wouldnt. Though I'll peep but I wun let you know that I'm looking in your direction. I wun. Though I'm not with you anymore, people around me knows that I still have you in my heart, but asked me not to think of it. Zzz. You ruined my fantasy and dunoe how much you hurt me. Nobody will understand. Esp you. You left me with 1/2 of my soul; took away my love and heart; left me with emptiness inside. You are the one I love the most..