Monday, September 20, 2004
Love full of hatred.
Dear Diary, I'm sad. Haiz. Din blog yesterday. Well, my sister and I would be sleeping in different rooms from today onwards. ^^ When life gets the best of me, I just think of HIm.. Why does he take me for granted? And choose to tell me that he's attached to someone with he's not. Why is there to lie to me? Why~ >.<~ ! I hate life leh. Nowadays, I'm very fond of sleeping. I dream and I'm happy in my dreams. No matter who I see in my dreams, I'm happy and I'm enjoying myself. Then when I wake up, I thought of Terence. I'm sad. Sometimes I just wish that I dun wake at all. At least I was enjoying myself in my dreams and suffering in reality. I dunoe why. I asked my friends why, they simply say that it's lidat. I duwan that answer at all, please. It's that really the end? I duwan to end it with a full stop. I duwan to, can he just put his pride away and talk peacefully with me? Even if we dun get together in the end, I just hope that he can be happy. And I want to be happy, with or without him. I need answers. But why does he always get fused up when talking about it? Life sucks to the core, man. I hate all these. I feel like dying in my dreams and at least, die peacefully..